So what's happening? Do we just like punishing efforts
which ultimately deny us the rewards we seek? (Also
known as masochism).
Is something wrong here?
Yes of course! In order to move forward into the joy and happiness that we
long for, we must first face the lack of joy and the unhappiness in our past.
Most people are so terrified of the suffering
of facing their past that they continue to
slide back to it, rather than risk the pain that
finally winning and being happy will bring
them.
But you are a beautiful person full of talents and vitality and deserve everything you aspire
to. And so it's time to brave moving forward! As Your Personal Muse I hereby ordain that for
every two steps forward you will travel three. And I'll meet you in heaven some day with a
smile on your face.
But there you go again...
Denying yourself
Questioning yourself
Doubting yourself
Lying to yourself
Cheating yourself
Tricking yourself
Sabotaging yourself
De-animating yourself
Un-passioning yourself
Un-focusing yourself
Unmotivating yourself... and sliding backwards once again.
Unfortunately, I can't help you until you consent to help yourself instead, and
stop . . .
Denigrating yourself,
ridiculing yourself,
criticizing
judging yourself,
punishing yourself,
and generally deprecating yourself.
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yourself,
Let's call your traits and behaviors the backpack you're carrying on your back. Certain
supplies in your pack are lighter than air and help you double your steps forward or
cheer you on during the hard parts. These supplies are hope, faith, belief,
encouragement, trust, support, approval, care, compassion, empathy, forgiveness,
affection, and Love.
Unfortunately, for the self sabotager
or professional denigrator, the poor
worn old pack is bulging at the
seams with some unfortunate
anchors and anvils which someone
stuffed into your pack. Anvils and
anchors called criticism, ridicule,
judgement, doubt, absence,
indifference, anger, violence,
punishment, abuse, and trauma.
How are you going to continue your
trek up that slope called dreams and
aspirations with that payload? No
wonder you're sliding backwards.
Luckily for you beautiful one, WRONG, WRONG, AND WRONG AGAIN.
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Your Personal Muse's trekking checklist to
lessen and some day eliminate climbing the
same mountain over and over and over again:
Tears, grieving, and catharsis
are all medicine for lightening
your emotional load. Your
Personal Muse is just a Sherpa
to carry the first aid kit. Only you
can open it and put it to use! Why and how are you going to succeed?
Because you deserve it and because you want to. The rest is just one step
after the other!
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Yes of course! On a very powerful unconscious level, we
gain more when we fail or slide backwards then when we
live up to our aspirations.
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